Dreams....

Wow - just found out that somebody else is pregnant. That makes 13 people I know expecting.  I didn't even know this many knocked up women when I was preggers.  Why now when I can't be in that position?  Times like this makes me feel really angry at my situation!!!

I must have alot on my mind lately because my various dreams last night (ones that I remembered) all have to do with some sort of turmoil. Wonder what's that all about.

One of the dreams I had was going into my dentist office and the parking lot, reception area, office building, everywhere I looked, there were pregnant ladies.  I couldn't look anywhere without seeing them all around me. Why the dentist? I don't know.  But I just wanted to scream and run away!!

And then in another dream, I was at work and the head of our office decided that hourly employees no longer can earn overtime pay although overtime hours were expected.  And no reimbursement for mileage. And that he was taking away our holidays.  Next was taking away all benefits.  Everything was being taken away from us, bit by bit.  And I was unhappy but the economy was bad and I couldn't leave this job without having another.  That dream was pretty interesting as my company went through a merger and the managing guy here is from the other company and there are many changes in place within the company. 

So my dreams definitely had some significance to things going on in my life.  Wish I can remember the happy dreams I had.  So wierd as I can occassionally remember some dreams while have no remberance of others.

In other news, its Halloween weekend. I am so not the dressing up kind of gal. But I am going to a costume-required party on Saturday evening.  I put on my costume last night and my husband was laughing hysterically. Its going to be a loooonnnng night.  Going to another party earlier in the day, but there is no way I can wear my get-up with kids and families around. So my husband and kid will dress up (as they are a pair --- Dr. Evil & Mini-me) and I'll throw on my costume before hitting the adult party.  Then we will be going trick o' treating in my neighborhood on Sunday - on the earlier side - so we are back to hand out candy to the kids later on.  Still have to work on hemming the boys' costumes tonight. And after work, I have to run out and get a few more items for me. Leave it to me to wait til the last minute to pull everything together. Next year, we are keeping things more simple and just getting costumes off the shelf...

Infertility Sucks

It seems as if every other day, I'm finding out that somebody else is pregnant and giving their child a sibling.  I'm really happy for them, but I can't help to be sad and depressed everytime I hear of another.  I would love to give my son a baby sister or brother but its just not to be.  When I hear of another pregnancy and I get depressed and feel sorry for myself, that's when I need to pick up my baby (who is actually turning 2 in 3 weeks -eeek!) and give him lots of hugs and kisses and be thankful for him because he was truely a miracle.

After 2 failed IVF treatments, we were 3rd time lucky and got a beautiful boy in 1998. A few months ago, I jumped back onto the IVF train and started going through treatment. Twice. And both came out negative.  

So we are done and just have to hang on to our little miracle and hope that he doesn't push too hard for a sibling when he gets older.  I'm dreading having to talk to him about why he doesn't have a sister or brother to play with.

Another Weekend

Has it already been a week since I last wrote? That seems unbelievable, but then again days are all meshing together and weeks are flying by at a rapid pace.

This week, I went back to my doctor's office as she wanted to talk to me about some of my blood results.  Turns out that although my blood pressure and glucose numbers are good, my insulin levels and cholestorol (sp?) numbers are not.  So now I'm on a couple of meds to try to get things in order before I turn diabetic. Diabetes runs in my family. And being overweight, this is something that has been on my mind for years, but all my levels have been good..up until now.  I better get on the ball and beat this thing before it beats me!! 

The meds have been weirding me out though.  One gets me all wired. And the other gives me stomach aches. What joyous week its been. ugghh....

Turns out that the Halloween costume I ordered online doesn't fit.  It has been really difficult to find something in my size. I ordered the size I would normally wear, but it is way too tight.  Seems to me that the manufacturers of Halloween costumes are the same people who make wedding and bridesmaid dresses.  Meaning they are way smaller than 'regular' clothes.  So I sent it back and spent days searching the web, I think I may have found something through http://www.yandy.com/ It should be here next week. I sure hope this one fits because I'm running out of time to get something! Not that I want a 'sexy' costume, but beggars can't be choosers. I just wonder what it will look like when I go to a kiddie party and treak or treating with my kid. oh well, its Halloween, right? ;)

The in-laws are visiting this weekend. We've been seeing them every 6-8 weeks since having the baby.  A bit more than I like but he is their own grandson so I suck it up.  But I am also going to have some fun while they are here.

Meeting some momma friends tonight for dinner. Should be fun, interesting conversation. And then tomorrow night, after the baby is put down and the in-laws leave, the babysitter is coming over and we are heading out to Hollywood to meet a friend for his birthday. 

My friend Drew is a kick. He always has to celebrate his birthday. This year, its at Bar Sinister (http://www.barsinister.net/), which is a dark, alternative, industrial, gothic, fetish club where black is the mandatory attire. I suppose the people watching will be interesting. I'm sure I'll stand out as a sore thumb because no matter how I dress, I just don't look goth.  I'm sure I'll have stories to post next week on this little adventure. haha

Have a great weekend everyone!

Another Friday...And its the Weekend!!

Fridays seem to come pretty quickly these days. Work has been busy so maybe that's why everything seems to be a blur.

The plans for this weekend include attending a 3 year old birthday party at Chuck E Cheese (germs galore; I'm going to have hand sanitizer with me everywhere me and the kid touch!).

Then spending Saturday evening with some gals. Hanging in watching a movie and eating, talking, etc.  I really think its important to have some "me" time away from the hubby and kid.  Makes me appreciate everything more even if its a few hour break. Plus its nice to talk to other mommas and compare toddler drama..

My mom is visiting us Sunday morning. She's in town visiting her so-called "Boyfriend".  That's a whole other long story that I will share some other time.  So since she's in the LA Area, she's stopping by to spend some time with the little one. 

In the afternoon, we are heading to Elysian Field to see the Dodgers. What a disappointing season it has been between the McCourt divorce drama and the losing season.  Its the last game of the year and couldn't come too soon.  The only reason why we are going  is that the tickets are part of the 7-game season ticket package that we bought in order to see the Yankees/Dodger game earlier this summer. 

I can't say that going to the games have been bad. Its really a fun family day. Its so much fun to see my son enjoy himself. When he was a baby, he would cry everytime the crowd got loud. Now he screams and yells with the crowd. He flirts with all the girls. And he gets alot of attention from everyone around us.

Being the last game of the year, it is Fan Appreciation Day and they are giving away 15,000 prizes. Yes...15,000!! So I hope that we get something out of it.  Its the least they can do for putting us through the season this year!

We were going to get season tickets for next year, but have decided that until the whole McCourt drama is done, we aren't gonna give them another dime of our money.  McCourt needs to sell the franchise and step away in order to save it.  Not that his opinion matters any more, but for O'Malley (the Dodgers former owner) to publicly berate McCourt -- says an awful lot about the state of affairs. All we want is a winning team of which we can all be proud. It's just so sad to see such a great historic franchise, a national icon -- be driven into the ground and set ablaze.

And that's just my two cents for today....

What are your plans for this weekend?

Getting Ready for Halloween -- Already? Sigh....

I have never really gotten into the whole costume thing for Halloween.  Call me a grouch. I just don't get it.  But now that I have a kid, I have to change my thinking as its not all about me anymore *sigh*

Last year, I put him in a baby monkey costume that I picked up at TRU.  We were in Vegas and were going trick or treating with my neice & nephew and some of my sister's friends' kids.  Being our first halloween with the baby, I had to dress up too. So leave it to me to wait the week before to get something. And being the size that I am, its not so easy to just walk into a halloween shop and come out with a costume. And the choice of costumes are quite limiting too.  I chose the one costume that I could fit into and that was a scary court jester. I wasn't happy about it but then again, I didn't have too many choices. Needless to say, the court jester and the cute monkey boy didn't quite go together.


So this year, I am thinking ahead of time.  Good momma!!  But really the only reason I'm thinking ahead is that my husband and I have been invited to an adults-only Halloween party this year where costumes are required.  And earlier in the day, we have been invited to a family party for an open house, but it will be halloween themed and costumes can be worn. So I have been wracking my brain to come up with something.


Everyone says how much my son looks like my husband. He's like a mini-me. There's the answer. Father & son look-alike costumes.  I searched all over the net and found both a Dr. Evil costume for my husband and a Toddler Mini-Me costume for my son at http://www.halloweencostumes.com/ They are going to look great together.


As for me, I'm still searching for a costume. I'm leaning towards something in the Austin Powers mode since my family is going that route.  Probably do something 60's era.  But at least I'm not waiting til the last week to find something and have 30 more days to find the perfect outfit that will complement my family.

Manic Monday

This hot weather is just so draining on the system.  I was just saying the other day how we really had a mild summer in the Valley this year.  Just a couple of weeks ago, I even wore a light jacket because it was cool.  Now I don't want to wear anything because its just so darn hot outside.  Thankfully we live in an era of air conditioning because I would d.i.e. without it!!

On Friday night, we went out to eat dinner. Seems to be the weekly routine. We went to Emle's which is a really good restaurant, but I'm not impressed with the kids meals.  Our third time there with the kid, and the third item we tried to get him to eat to no avail. So probably won't be going back there for quite a while. 

On Saturday, the kid and I went to a birthday party. It was nice because I was able to hang out with a couple of my 'single-life' friends. I'm friends with the kids mom/dad from my single days at the rock clubs.  Now I hang with them more since we have kids. haha

On Sunday, I achieved exactly what I thought I would and that was a bit of nothing.  It was so hot outside--too hot to be outside--so we stayed in side with the games on tv and played.  I wasn't able to catch much of any game as the boy is too young to sit back and watch television, unless it was Blue's Clues or Yo Gabba Gabba (& the latest "the Upside Down show"). Then I can't get him away from it!

We did take a dip in the pool once the sun wasn't blazing down on us. And we cooked up some chicken on the grill so the kitchen didn't overheat with use of the oven. 

I have such a hard time working, coming home and cooking dinner. So I recently found some interesting recipes online using the crockpot. Last week, I made roast pork with sweet potatoes and it was quite yummy. Tonight's fare will be chicken cattiatore.  What I do is prepare everything the night before and then in the morning, throw everything into the crockpot, set it on low for 10 hours, and come home to a piping hot meal. Can't beat that!  That's the only way that that my husband gets a home cooked meal these days. Otherwise, he has to fend for himself and its soup, sandwich or a salad.  We need to get into the habit of eating a meal with the boy so the crock pot it is. Not that he eats anything I prepare, but if he sees mommy and daddy eating it, I hope that someday he will be open to trying to new food besides mac & cheese, spaghetti, corn dogs, chicken nuggets or hot dogs. 

Yay! Its Friday!!

ahh..Finally Friday. That means just a few more hours at work and then the weekend!  The only thing really planned this weekend is a kid's birthday party on Saturday.

Weekends have sure changed for me.  My weekends use to consist of going to rock clubs, staying up all night and sleeping in until afternoon. Wake up and do it all again.  Now, I crash in bed before midnight. Get woken up by 8am (if I'm lucky) and start the day running after a crazy child.  Will he nap or won't he? Will he eat or won't he? Will he be clingy or won't he? Everyday is a bit different and I can never really plan my day until I see what the little one will be like.

Roger works every other Saturday so on the days that its just me and the kid, I try to do things to keep us busy. For instance, tomorrow we have a birthday party to go to. On days that we don't have planned activities, I usually will end up at the mall with the kid buying more clothes for him. We'll go out to eat lunch and he'll play in the kiddie play area.  Or we'll go to a park or do something to keep us entertained.

When Roger is home, we try to do family activities.  I'm the one that has to plan our day or else the day would just consist of sitting in front of the tv watching sports.  I check out the activities in the area and try to do something that is outside (since we live in Southern California and the weather is pretty decent for the most part!).  That is, when I can pull him away from the tv and sports.  Its football season.  I like the games too but its really hard to watch them with a kid at home.

No plans for Sunday yet. But it should be a nice day outside so maybe we'll just play at home, lounge by the pool, throw balls, and get an ocassional peek at the games?  We recently redid our backyard and now that's its complete, we haven't spent much time at home enjoying it.  Now that would be a perfect day. Just chill at home, take a dip in the pool, cook out on the bbq and relax. What a concept!